The goal is to blog every day. I’m sure this will really turn out to be next to impossible for me – the person who can’t even stick to a week-long menu (after I’ve bought the food).
Today was a good day. Work was productive. I am somehow out of the loop when it comes to a few clients and I’m feeling the heat. My goal for this year is to push for clear pathways with each of them and help to guide them towards their ultimate risk management and financial goals. Very flowery words that mean nothing without further detail. But that’s all you get.
On the personal side, I am busy trying to keep the reality of my life in order and discard my obsession with appearances. I’m not sure whatever romance exists out there for me at the moment is real. I don’t trust it. Partially because I’m the asshole who gets into things and cares more. And I have expectations for myself and I apply those to the people around me, as if my actions and feelings and who I am drives the both of us. Welcome to: “How role-reverse parental/child relationships can affect how you see the world.” I am in charge. I make decisions & everyone follows. Except you turn around 9 miles into the journey and you find out you are all alone, again.
So, starting tomorrow. I will care less. I’m still going to push him, but the plan is to withdraw. I’m clearly over-invested and that’s too risky for my taste at this point.
Oh how the winds can change in 24 hours.
The Forces Underlying 